Depression

depression is the kind of thing that can sneak up on you and then hit you with a brick after being behind a wall for months. that is what happened to me recently. I haven't been able to get out of bed without a fight in my head for weeks. I also haven't been to church in over month, I just can't seem to find a reason to go. I also sprained my back and I can't do anything and it is so frustrating!!!! I feel like everyone is mad at me and I can't do anything right and I am being sucked into exhaustion and pain and hurt and brokenness and I can't crawl out. plus my back injury could have been caused by the man who sexually abused me, I don't know how to handle this. and everyone I talk to think I am fine because I am taking medication for my depression and anxiety, but the medication doesn't always help. I am afraid of where the depression takes my mind and the thoughts that I think, I have been distracting myself or at least trying to. this whole situation is bullshit.