Acceptance

being accepted is something that drives us as humans when you enter into a place that accepts you it is so joyful and loving and amazing, I have finally experienced that in my life. And to be honestly it is wonderful. but it is only wonderful because god led me there (and my best friend, but god led me to her sooo) this church is so welcoming and they never look down on me. god has brought me there so I can feel that and is letting me know his love and showing it to me through the community. I just wish I could give god a hug and thank him. thank him for giving me my best friend, thank him for showing me this new life and this future that I can now see. I look back at the fact that 2 years ago I was up one night thinking about slitting my wrists, but today I am happier than ever and I can finally see a future for myself, never give up on yourself. the darkness is really good at showing us evil and making us believe it, but we need to push through that and see the love that god gives us, Jesus died so that he could know us.

God

Some thing i have noticed in life is that it is if you dont trust and ask god about everything then nothing is worth it. i noticed that i haven't been asking god about the people i am struggling with, or even having a crush on and i was truly stressing about it (i know its a stupid thing to stress about) but last night i had a break down and i just told god i am so sorry for not talking to him about it. i felt so dumb when the answer was there the whole time and all i needed to do was talk to god, and god turns all that confusion and melts it away. whenever i feel this aching pain in my chest i just ask god to take it away and i feel so free, like right now when i am writing about him my heart is free and full of love. it is a feeling that i will never take for granit, god is my savior and he shows me the love that every little girl deserves from her earthy father. even if no one reads this i will know that he has changed me, it would be amazing if someone did read this, but they probably wont.