Unprotected

I think it is bullshit when someone who says they will protect you doesn't. my dad was supposed to protect me from everything, but he couldn't even protect me from himself, or other people. there is a major distinction between a father and a dad. like I have said before a father is supposed to protect, love, and care about you, to me "dad" is a word for a man who lied and hurt me for 13 years of my life. I think I am in a grieving process over the fact that I will never have the feeling of having a real dad who will love me unconditionally. it hurts my heart, my dad is a dick and him isn't capable of ever giving that to me. he left me alone to be sexually abused by his best friend. he left me unprotected and broken and he treated me like trash my whole life. I have forgiven him, but I will never be able to forget.